my first post for my third try

Its look like this is my third time creating a blog. My old blog have been removed for some reason. Sometimes I’ve no time to update my blog or even worse I’ve no idea to conteng-conteng my blog. Now, I don’t know why, I feel like there is an empty space in my heart. It’s not that I need some in my life or boyfriend to fill my emptiness. You know, when you getting far and far from your closest friends, you will just feel like they don’t need you anymore. Furthermore, your friend is in a relationship right now. It’s not that I’m envy with her/him, but I feel like I’ve been thrown away by my own friends. But when I thought about it, I think I must be happy when all people around me happy, isn’t it? Just I hope, there is still a space for me in her heart.

I remember when we use to be together in school. All things we done it together. Whenever or wherever we go, we will always be together. Is it true when we seldom meet, best friends can be friend only? Who can answer my question? I need to know it right now. I feel very sad when all the memories with all my friends like running back in front of my eyes, one by one. Feel like wanna cry (T____T) Is it okay for me to beg them so that they will never ever forget me? Or I just too sensitive in this matter? Oh! This is very complicated then being in a relationship with guys. God! Help me..~